Kpop

These were extras from the MIT post, because it has harsh content, cuz I was just ranting, and I don't want anyone to be offended. It's "too soon" to post this now.

My interview was a failure, because the interviewer was an engineering kid that did not understand my passion for business. I talked, and he was just staring at me. At least have some emotion. Thanks. He just said, "oh, just intro yourself". At least ask some questions. When he had to ask questions, he followed such a logical flow it was excruciating. And, it made me look horrible. He also looked like I should be able to intro myself, without guidance. FYI I AM A HIGH SCHOOL KID THAT DOESNT DO INTERVIEWS EVERYDAY LIKE YOU DO. I could tell he was flipping me off, and was gonna write a generic interview form back to MIT. This totally ruins my chances for any acceptance from MIT, especially since my grades suck anyways.

Later, he asked me if I wanted to give my present to him to some other friend. WOW. I'm being nice, and that's what he does? Have some manners. Plus, he also said, "oh, if you cant make it out alive in high school, you won't survive in MIT". Well, guess what. I didn't want to hear that. AND, you don't need to assume that of me. I think you weren't much better either. Just saying.

I had high hopes for my MIT interview on Thursday. It didn't go so well. It was horrible to watch, especially since I had prepped so hard for this interview, and I really wanted to go to MIT. I had forgone going with my friends to Chipotle and watching Megamind that afternoon just so I could prep and dress well for the interview. I had everything planned out. When I got there, I was wearing heels and semiformal, and carrying a manila folder like a businesswoman, and this guy was wearing his biking clothes. WTH. This was a good learning thing, because I had to swallow defeat and feel hurt, because I'm usually successful. I found that I really don't like the feeling. Really.

I was just brewing within myself just now, these few days.I didn't really want to talk about it, because it was my own business, and just plain embarrassing. I was just watching Glee, and (yes I'm behind, I'm on season 1) Quinn and Finn were being rejected by their social class. They were not popular anymore. Before, when I was not really into the whole connections with friends thing, I was okay with popular people falling out of their groupies. It was out of my circle, and I didn't care. Now, there are so many bad rumors going around about me, and I want to feel good about my abilities again. I want to be accepted, into MIT, into friends, into everything. And I was, before, in middle/start of high school. Now, I'm not. I am, but I feel like I've fallen a notch. I'm not the amazing being I was before. I can totally sympathize with Quinn and Finn and how they feel. After being placed so high up there, it hurts more sharply than ever when we fall.

And, after that, I was watching some clips for SuJu, and they were so happy. (The video I was referring to is below.) I realized why I liked kpop. It's so overly perfect. So overly cheerful. I needed that in my life. I needed to escape reality. Disney does the same thing for me. I needed to escape. And kpop gave me that. I was groaning all day, and when I saw that, I just smiled. There was nothing else I could do. I know I've kinda called kpop kpoop, and I've bashed it to seem cool, but really, I like it. I do. It's so amazing, and I thank my fellow kpoppers to spazz over kpop with me. I don't know what I would do without all of you. I am going to make an effort to be nice with all of you, even when I feel down. Thank you everyone. <3