Familiar Territory

"You want to know who your true friends are? Screw up and see who's still there for you." -friend's status

Agreed. I feel like I'm agreeing to a lot of these. It's cuz, if I didn't agree, I probably wouldn't blog about it :O Anyways. I've screwed up a couple of times. Some people just leave me after that. Others won't. Those friends I have the strongest memories with. Those friends I make the strongest bonds with. Through high school, I've made so many mistakes. In fact, I've basically changed my friend group cuz of that. I have left a few by my side though. Friends that I've known and still like to hang out with, even after everything. Friends since middle school. In my old school, I never really had such strong bonds, partly because I was still a kid and everyone was friends, and partly because I never really knew how to build a strong friendship. With middle school being a time to start over, I changed everything and remade myself. Growing up, I've become familiar with this place and it's quirks. Yes, I've hated certain parts of it, yes, I've wanted to move away and restart so many times, but now, when it's actually time to leave, I really don't want to go. I really don't feel like leaving this familiarity. I'm going to miss everyone. I'm even going to miss the occasional hate that floats around. Just leaving to start over is what a coward does. Staying and making things better is so much more courageous. I want to make up with everyone, and leave this place with a impact. This is going to be a part of me, no matter what I do in the future. Going out to see colleges, I see the differences, and how sheltered this area really is. It's safe, and I know that I should have stepped out into the world a long time ago, but I never did. I never mainstreamed myself. I stayed with academics. Now, it's finally time, and I just gotta move fast I guess. Change is a part of life.