Less is More

A speech-and-debate phrase. A leadership phrase. Something I should have learned. HA.

Spider Web

Today. I walked through a spider web. It felt gross. I shivered afterwards.

Waste

I spent.
so long.
I started at 7 pm.
I worked till 2 am.
I didn't sleep on time.
I spent all my weekends there.
I spent my weekdays there.
I went to that place.
The place where a certain someone else also moved around.
I wasted energy.
I didn't go to parties.
I didn't go to sports.
I didn't even do hw.
Just to do this.
Just to make this a success.
Three years and five classes.
I sat through it all.
I grueled through it all.
And now what.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Nothing.
Not even a final draft.

Why is it like THAT? You must be able to do SOMETHING.

Well guess what.
I CANT. I JUST CANT.
I've given you all that I can.
I've told you all that I know.
That's the end of me.
Stop repeatedly asking me for more.
Don't continuously forcing me to do more.
I am HUMAN.
I got limits.
I did all that I can do.
I can't give any more.
I dunno how to give anymore.
Just stop.
I'm tired.
I gotta sleep.
I need to do other stuffs.


Thanks.

Winter Break is Over

First day back at school. It should be a light day, cuz it's the first day back. And it was. I actually have no hw that I havent finished already due tomo. ^^ Thing is. There is a ton of stuff due either late this week or beginning of next week. Like. TOO much that if I didn't start over break, I'd be screwed. Which I am. YAY. >.> Ugh. Life is a pain. March is a pain. Everything happens. Spring rolls around, and everyone's expected to be "on top of things". Not only am I not doing that, but I'm actually under things AND sleep deprived. aflaskdf.

Big Bang Comeback: The Big Bang Show Raw

OMG. GAH. It's amazing. And I have a fetish for intros/little movie segments featuring stars. and theirs is SUPER AMAZING! (: Watch below!














cr. kpopbisu on yt, Casper on allkpop

thoughts:
Cafe: Daesung's normal-voiced thing = great, but it's just his normal singing? >.>
their white jackets have their faces on them?! xDD
Top's yellow-cuffed greenish-grayish jacket: nice design. There's a square hole like, there. xD
What is Right song chorus = LIKE! <3 Taeyang is given such special treatment in every song. I know he's most popular and all, but daesung bias is wonderful tooooo T^T are they sitting on red balls and talking? OH its seats shaped like balls, thank goodness xD part 3/6 time 9.07 Top is so cute xDD time 9.37: that sweater/shirt thing is like, parts of 2 diff colored ones tied together xDD omg. GD. That uhm. you became a girl! and a cute one at that xDD and stuffing ears is not gonna work through a hood kiddo xDD taeyang: that long hair is dashing on you ^^ 4/6: 2.18 Seungri/Top action! yes. I'm immature. xD 2.21 onwards: top has tight pants like shinee xDD theres something erm very prominent xDD 5.52: top strutting xDDD, and gd being all girly xDD WHAT IS AIR!! daesung's perfume spraying. omg. LMAOOO daesung has the perfect lips to put lip gloss on. He looks perfect with shiny lips xDDD 5/6 4.57 kinda looks like taemin's mushroom head xDD the song right after the parody daesung's small eyes + his smile make him so cute <33 I think I like guys with small eyes WTF. They gotta wear like leather-jacket-y style clothes, like bad boy clothes, and like, be super cool and awesome. they gotta have sideswept bangs too that sweep to the right like onew that little strip of hair on top of the head is just weird sometimes idk why i'm even writing this. this is basically just describing onew xD strike through it all.
Taeyang's breakfast shirt xDD oh key you made me <3 those types of shirts
you know what. scratch that. I like all their outfits for that song. Its a lot like what shinee wears and I approve of. (: Plus, their dance is all happy and cheery and jojo-like. And they have sweatshirt-y like clothes which are comfy and nice (:
seungri's hat/scarf thing. so cute <33
I JUST WENT TO LA THEY WERE THERE TOOOO?!
oooh mv shooting in la, pretty coooll + retro too xD
ehehe they have string thingies on their jackets that fly around! woosh!
they have really stylish backup dancers, wearing clothes that some bands normally wear, and each person wears diff stuffs :O so rich, their budgets must be huges xDD AND they bring "backup dancer" to a new level with the mic/stand handling and all xDD
gd can just smash a guitar like that?! o.0
seungri = minho in looks
<3333 the perf. I HAD to watch it today. I was waiting for a bang, and they gave it. Well done. (:

Best Engineering Colleges By Salary Potential

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Hell yes NYU POLY.

More Quotes

“Today, in my dream, there was music! When I woke up in the morning, I realized I fell asleep with my MP3 on.” - Taemin (He's such a dork! :P but i love him!)
“I followed what the dog did, but then I realized that I’m a human.” - Onew (no you're not human! your todu cuz i wanna eat u up! lOls jk jk)
Jonghyun: Rockstar!
Key: LOBSTER?!” (I don't know why i particularly like this one i guess their reactions made my laugh)
"We're really nocturnal. We become hyper during the night." - Taemin (I just LOL)
Onew: We open the door,
"Noona (BoA) hello!"
BoA; "I'm practicing so get out~" (LOL! BoA Shinee fighting!)
"Blood type B aren't bad boys, believe me. If so, do you believe that Key hyung, Minho hyung, and I are bad too?"
- Taemin. (Yes yes you are! ^^)
"(Talking about meeting Jessica of SNSD for the first time) It was good...*whispers* she was scary."
- Key (Well she is the ice princess! But still LOL)

“I know about women. I know that they’re not men”- minho (Oh NAH! LOl even Minho is so cute!)
Key: ‘We have something at our dorm that no one else has.’
MC: ‘What is it?’
Key: ‘We have a snail!’ (.....)
“A lot people have sent me keys as presents. A while ago, someone sent me car keys, but that person wouldn’t tell me where the car is!” -Key (Oh it's on the lane to the left about twenty meters away! Lols jk)
“It’s not that I am the kind who talks little, it’s just that the members talk too much.” -Minho (Agreed!)
Question: ‘Member habits that you hate?’
Answer: ‘Rolling over me when I sleep!’- Taemin (LOLS poor taemin!)
"It's cold here in Thailand."
Host: 'Isn't Thailand a hot country?'
"It's cold here in the waiting room." -Taemin (That's just too cute!!!!!)

non-shinee quotes:

Be nice to nerds. Chances are you'll end up working for one.

It’s easy to fall in love. The hard part is finding someone to catch you.

Nobody really cares if you’re miserable, so you might as well be happy.

If you live to be a hundred, I want to live to be a hundred minus one day, so I never have to live without you.

“Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it is better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together.”

"You know that you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is better than your dreams."

"I stopped fighting my inner demon, we're on the same side now."

you call me a BITCH! well a BITCH is a DOG,
DOGS BARK
BARK is on TREES
TREES are part of NARTURE
and NATURE is BEAUTIFUL. so.....
THANKS FOR THE COMPLIMENT! ^^

cr. shinee_lover123 on allkpop

Glee

omg. <3 glee. I am officially a gleek. Even the worst stuffs can turn out to be great. Rachel gets dumped by a gay guy, and the first thing she responds with is "gold" for songwriting. xDDD It just makes me crack up. omg. And Kurt? omg. He's like, so uptight and stiff and girly, but like, totally easy to tease. HAHAH. Kurt is amazing, and being brothers with Finn? The normal alma mater of the school? It's like, the mix destined never to work out, and YET IT DOES. LIKE. WOW. Mixed with the awesome music that they make amazing remixes of? I think that Glee is a winner. YESH. YAAAY (:

iPhone Ad

This guy forgot that it was the anniversary between his wife and him, and he didn't make reservations at the place they were gonna eat dinner at. Thus, as he's talking on speakerphone, he searches for the place to eat. It's great that he can talk and surf at the same time, and it is "Rethink Possible" as AT&T says, but >.>. IDK if it's cuz I'm a girl, but that is lousy. You forget the anniversary? Really? >.>

English to Tumblr Translator

English: WHY DON’T YOU…..!

Tumblr: Y U NO……?!?!?!

English: You’re so immature and stupid.
Tumblr: LOL DIS BITCH
English: I’m single.
Tumblr: Forever alone.

English: I’m so mad!
Tumblr: FUUUUUU *inserts gif*

English: Anonymous.
Tumblr: Anon.

English: That Boy is so hot.
Tumblr: ASDFKLADA;

English:You make a very good point.
Tumblr: THIS! *inserts gif*

English: *laughs* That’s so funny!!
Tumblr: WHAT IS AIR?

English: Hey
Tumblr: OHAI

cr. insomniaticthoughts.tumblr.com

OH YESH I TOTALLY USE THESE xDD

SNOW!

Yesterday, all those weather reports said it was gonna snow tomorrow. I got so excited. WHEEE. IT NEVER SNOWS AROUND HERE. Then, today, I checked again, and it said that snow was just gonna be rain. HUMPH. Thanks for just ruining my mood. I was so happy it was gonna snow tomo, and I was gonna throw snowballs and all. Humph. I wanna go where there's snow.

a collection of fanaccounts of SHINee from Pre-debut and early days of debut

Taemin’s stories and accounts (pre-debut and early debut period):

1) One day, after the CF shooting, it was a dinner time. The chosen menu was various types of “katsu.” Jinki was having his makeup done while Taemin’s makeup was already finished. So, Jinki requested chicken katsu and other members also told Taemin their orders so he can tell the Manager hyung what they want. However, when the food came, there was no chicken katsu! Turns out that Taemin ordered Cheese katsu instead of Chicken katsu… Taemin promptly apologized to Jinki and Jinki being a good hyung told him that it’s okay, he will just eat the cheese katsu. Taemin then went away and came back holding a take-out order menu with a picture of chicken and gave it to Jinki. Jinki asked, “what is this?” Taemin replied, “you can watch this chicken while eating.” Jinki exploded in laughter and other members and staff also broke down. All were laughing so hard, they had hard time eating. Kind-hearted leader kept the chicken picture next to him and looked at it while eating. Oh, cutie Taemin

2) After the Dream Team recording, Taemin told Minho, “hyung you are really athletic, you were born with it.” Minho then told Taemin, “once you are as tall as me, you will be great too.” Taemin replied that it’s apparent that I’m going to be taller than you anyway. Another time, Minho asked Taemin to go work-out with him. Taemin then told him, “I’m working out already by dancing.”

3) Several months before Shinee’s debut, Taemin and Jonghyun came out of the SM building late at night. Jonghyun made sure Taemin got in the taxi and then took a picture of the cab’s license plate numbers. Then, he stayed and watched until the taxi disappeared.

4) Apparently, during the trainee period, Minho used to show a picture of Taemin to his friends and asked them, “isn’t he cute?”

5) One day, a nuna fan was waiting outside the dorm building and Taemin came out. As a joke, she said, “Taeminah, nuna is thirsty. Can you bring me some water?” Taemin then went back in and came out with a water!

6) At the fan signing event:

Male fan: Taeminah, can I see your clothes’ label?
TM: Nae? Why?
Male fan: Ah, I thought our Taemin is an angel brand… ha, ha.
TM and other members:  ???  !!!

7) When Taemin was an elementary school student, he walked around wearing earphones to look kind of cool although he did not have the MP3 player. But since he did not hide the cords well, it was obvious that he was only wearing earphones.

8) Fan: Taeminah, nuna is taking the university entrance exam in 44 days. Please root for me!!!
TM: You have so many days left… I have an exam next week. Root for me!!!

9) While Taemin was playing a video game with Minho, he was really into it and was yelling, “that one, there, there… Are you a babo? Why can’t you do that?” maknae on-top?

10) During the period of rumor about Taemin being bullied, Taemin’s class was heavily criticized. Therefore, one day, his classmates put bread and milk on Taemin’s desk as a good gesture. Taemin came in and deliciously ate them.

Since then, if other students from different classes came by to see Taemin, his classmates shouted, “he’s our Taemin,” and covered classroom windows with sketchbooks and kicked them out.

11) One day, Taemin was looking for his milk after returning to the dorm, but couldn’t find it no matter how much he searched. Turns out that Jonghyun drank it. Taemin complained for awhile and then the Manager hyung showed up with a new milk. Apparently, Jonghyun previously asked him to bring some when he came by.

12) Taemin cannot sew. One day, he got hurt and yelled,” the needle(ee) stabbed me!”


Onew’s predebut and early day’s of debut stories and fan accounts:

1) At the fan signing event:

- Fan: Oppa. I made and brought a lunch box (obviously for him).
Onew: Nae, Please eat it well.

- Suddenly, Onew was not signing .
Fan: Oppa, why aren’t you signing? Aren’t you feeling well?
ON: Suddenly, I cannot remember my signature!

- Fan: Hello!
ON: Nae, hello… it’s been awhile.
Fan: What? what?
ON: It’s been awhile nuna!!!
Fan: Ah, I am not a nuna… today is my first time coming to the fan signing event… You called me nuna… nuna…
ON: Ah, umm, well, ah…

2) At the Chungwoon university interview:

Interviewer: Are you that Shinee?
Jinki:  ??? Nae, I am that Shinee.

3) One day, Onew ran into someone who ran away from home. When he told Onew that he is hungry, Onew gave him a Choco pie.
Source: cafe.daum.net/lucky11124
Credit:ny111play  @ soompi
cr. http://forevershiningshinee.tumblr.com/

This is amazing. It's what shinee has gotta go through. Say that artists are just pretty faces. Well, apparently they gotta know their people skills down cold too. And shinee has this bond. Like, when taemin (maknae) acts cute, shinee doesnt go d'awww, they crack up. They know their maknae well enough to do that. It's amazing how connected they are. It's part of why theyre such a good group. They let themselves show through, and through it all, they make a great group. <333 shinee

Quotes

"those who laugh the loudest also cry the hardest" -friend's status
true. they allow themselves to be the most vulnerable by asserting their emotions. Shy people keep a straight face all the time. Take it from someone with experience. Though this is a general wave thing. Some people hold back when having fun. They seem to "laugh the loudest", but they don't "cry the hardest", because they hold themselves back. They scout out potentially bad situations and hold back during those. Similarly, some "cry the hardest" but they don't "laugh the loudest". They usually don't give themselves the looseness to laugh, but when they reach something euphoric, they let themselves go, to give themselves the hardest cry ever. Their way of "laughing" is not valued by loudness, but by the amount of emotion put in. It's silent. It's deadly. Though the feelings hurt just as horribly.


"The F word is the most versatile word in the English language." -friend
HAHAH. It's so true. OMG. I died laughing at that. lmao. No matter how crude, or whatever that word is, its proliferation is inevitable cuz it's so so amazing. The King's Speech totally uses this word. It's so simple, so harsh, so beautiful. (:

Familiar Territory

"You want to know who your true friends are? Screw up and see who's still there for you." -friend's status

Agreed. I feel like I'm agreeing to a lot of these. It's cuz, if I didn't agree, I probably wouldn't blog about it :O Anyways. I've screwed up a couple of times. Some people just leave me after that. Others won't. Those friends I have the strongest memories with. Those friends I make the strongest bonds with. Through high school, I've made so many mistakes. In fact, I've basically changed my friend group cuz of that. I have left a few by my side though. Friends that I've known and still like to hang out with, even after everything. Friends since middle school. In my old school, I never really had such strong bonds, partly because I was still a kid and everyone was friends, and partly because I never really knew how to build a strong friendship. With middle school being a time to start over, I changed everything and remade myself. Growing up, I've become familiar with this place and it's quirks. Yes, I've hated certain parts of it, yes, I've wanted to move away and restart so many times, but now, when it's actually time to leave, I really don't want to go. I really don't feel like leaving this familiarity. I'm going to miss everyone. I'm even going to miss the occasional hate that floats around. Just leaving to start over is what a coward does. Staying and making things better is so much more courageous. I want to make up with everyone, and leave this place with a impact. This is going to be a part of me, no matter what I do in the future. Going out to see colleges, I see the differences, and how sheltered this area really is. It's safe, and I know that I should have stepped out into the world a long time ago, but I never did. I never mainstreamed myself. I stayed with academics. Now, it's finally time, and I just gotta move fast I guess. Change is a part of life.

Hmm.

This idea is totally cliche and all, but as the sky was crying rain today, I felt like crying too. I felt hopeless. The world was too big for me to conquer. I was alone.

Yesterday, we were out after I got out from school, and my parents and I were out. My parents had to do some business before we went shopping, and I was just following along. When they were finally done with their stuffs, we walked out of the building. My mom had to gather up some papers on the way out, so she was the last one out. My dad and I had gotten to the car and we were getting in when we heard my mom scream. She had fallen. When people fall, they usually get back up and all is fine, right? When my mom fell, I kinda just stood there in the rain, stunned, waiting for my mom to get up and say "haha, i'm okay" as she brushed herself off, but she didn't get up. She'd lost her purse and lay there hugging her knee. When my dad and I had gotten her into the car, we asked what happened. She said it wasn't that she'd slipped, but that her knees suddenly gave out under her. All of a sudden, she lost control over her knees. Okay, so your knees suddenly feel weird for a moment. Okay. But she kept saying that her knees hurt horribly. We had to cut our shopping trip home and she was in pain all the way home. 

Normally, when people fall, I'm okay with it and all. People fall. It's normal. The problem is, this isn't the first time. Last time, she fell and it took a month for her to stop hurting and putting on/eating medication and all. My mom rarely falls, and when she does, she falls hard. Plus, she has been having problems with her legs for a while now. Something about her blood circulation being slow and it can't get back up to her heart, so it kinda pools at her feet. That's why her feet always have problems. This might be a sign of her legs actually  signifying a bigger problem that might be irreversible. Plus, she mentioned it wasn't that she had slipped. Her legs had given out under her. That's strange. That has never happened to her, and I don't think I've ever had the same either? At least not to the extent that I fall? My mom is getting old though. And she always does so much for the family. She's almost the pillar of support. She wakes up in the morning and gets everyone ready for the day. She cooks breakfast and drives me to school, and then she has to go to work. She cooks the whole family's meals three times a day seven days a week. She picks me up and drops me off, and worries about us. She does so much. She never gets a day of rest. Recently. work has been really hard on her, and she's probably tired. The rain also gets to her. It's been raining, and it's cold. It gets into her bones and all. She hasn't been sleeping well either. She has her own stuff to worry about, and I haven't been sleeping at normal hours these days, and she wakes up in the middle of the night and checks on me sometimes.

Today, when she was putting this medication on her leg, she said she felt something crunching inside her knee cap. omg. What if something is wrong and maybe she hurt something important? She says she's okay, but she always says that. My mom is strong. My dad keeps playing down her problems, but I think something is wrong. We need to go to the doctor's asap, but I don't have control over my parents. Gah. I really hope my mom is okay.

Danson Tang - Parthian Shot

This song keeps coming up on my playlists/shuffles/etc these days. Don't get me wrong, I like the song, but it's strange. Why start arriving at my consciousness now?

Planner

After all my years of required education from the government, I still use my planner. I still update my planner with all my dates and tasks and write schedules of busy days. I write birthdays and other significant dates. So what? So I'm a loser for doing so? Am I retard that can't remember things that I''m supposed to know by heart?

Well guess what. I do remember things. I just like writing things down so I won't forget them IN CASE I forget. Usually, I don't forget. It's a safety net. It's for long term things that need extensive planning so I don't fall behind schedule. It's for crossing off what I've done so I feel accomplished. I like my planner, it's neat and I can control it. I feel like I have some control over my life when I look at it.

Plus, when pplz forget things, I don't. When pplz forget huge things that have huge consequences, I don't. When one deadline costs you everything you have, then remember the smart kid who used her planner.

Unfinished Fanfic

Fanfic: http://hazellicious.livejournal.com/7473.html#cutid1


"Desperation, combined with fury, rejection, despair, misery, longing, shame and so many more complicated emotions washed over him like a tidal wave, swallowing him whole as he forced himself to stand up." 
aka blackness.


"He could almost hear their voices, smooth and melodious, calling him back, saying that he should just believe...
That he only has to regret...
But they were wrong.
Once the gates had been closed, there was no way back in."
Everlasting hurt. Hope time can come to the rescue :(

I never finished this fanfic, and I don't think I'm ever going to either. Therefore, I'm just gonna post what I have.

Pokerap

omg. I never knew something like that existed. Theres a list of pokemon characters, and pplz can go down them like going down an attendance sheet. Shows how dedicated we all are. xDD

Artificial Perfection

so like, I was watching this mv, and its great that shinee is performing outdoors, but it kinda leaves a bad taste in my mouth. It's apparent that theyre well dressed and their hair and face are freshly done. They're clean, hot, cute, blah. It also looks artificial in the light. Their faces are whiter than normal. They look like machines that havent seen sunlight in ages. It leads me to think their lives really are that hectic. They really are that stressed out. They barely even look healthy.

I'm kinda the same way. I overdid my schedule and planned wayy too much than I could possibly do. As a result, I'd always be indoors working on this or that. I'd never be in the sunlight. Then, I started into a bad cycle. I was so tired after school that I'd take a nap first, then do all my work in the middle of the night. I didn't feel like i lacked sun, cuz I was always in the light of lightbulbs. I was though. After a few months, I felt weak. When I finally looked at myself in the mirror, I saw a pale face, with huge bags under the eyes, and mussy hair. That feeling was horrible. I thought I could fake a good exterior, but I was obviously dying inside.

Shinee looks the same way. I hate for them to be like that. They need to rest. It hurts me to see them that way. They probably didn't even bring it on themselves. It's not their decision. My tiredness was my decision, and I stopped doing that, planning time for breaks. They should do the same. I mean, I know that it's their dream to be famous singers and all, but like, they are killing their bodies. Their perfection as idols is almost fake. It's so saddening that our society has become so fake and gilded. It hurts.

"A pessimist is a man who looks both ways before crossing a one-way street." 
That is also called someone who is super ocd and careful, and inefficient, since its basically only in movies that cars go the wrong way =.=

Jjong Spectacles

Jjong is not nearsighted, or not very at least. He just wears designer glasses for the heck of it. When pplz are really nearsighted and you look into the corner of their glasses, their face like curves in for a chunk. When you look into the corner of jjong's glasses, it doesn't do that. Therefore he isn't really nearsighted. But he does look snazzy in those glasses all the same.

I Never Lie

HAHA. That. in itself. is a lie.

Late Nights

I promised myself no more of those at the end of junior year.
I promised myself that I would never pull all nighters on school nights ever again.
I promised myself to focus on schoolwork and get good grades.
I promised myself to stop feeding into social drama.
I promised myself to rid my Shinee addiction.
I promised myself that I would be efficient.
I promised myself to work before wasting time.
I promised myself to not take super long naps.
I promised myself to take care of myself.
and I failed myself.

CL & Minzy: Please Don't Go

one of my fav songs ever. I just got reminded by another person's blog and listened to it. <333 it.

Valentine's Day

It's less than a week away! Ask that special someone blah blah blah.

omg. I'm sick of hearing these words. STOP IT. I may act kinda squishy and close to pplz sometimes, but I definitely am not gay. I know that one of my friends always asks me to hold hands with her, and sometimes I do, because it's a JOKE, she also puts her hands in my jacket pockets and feels my tummy or puts her hand around my back. Okay. First of all. Putting hands in pocket was a way to keep warm in winter, and it was also a way to disguise her holding my hand. Plus, it's just touching. omg. Shinee like, touches each other all the time. If there's bromance, there's the girl version of it too. It's just we're good friends. Nothing else. Plus, with other friends, I'm kinda touchy-feely sometimes, all hugging on their side too. I can't help that shoulders meld so easily with the front of my torso. Plus, it's so much easier to see/comfy/conserving of energy when you put your head on someone else's shoulder. And, when others say, oh, its like, awkward, well okay it's kinda awkward, yea, but like, I also know it's a joke. grow up. Don't keep asking me to send these things to friends cuz I just ain't buying it. I keep my own space, and I have limitations, however much you beg to differ. Plus, valentine's day holds kinda a special meaning for me. Theres a lot of guys that I think about each time the phrase "valentines day" comes up. Most of these have actually ended in despair, so like, valentines day doesn't hold the best meaning for me right now. It kinda pisses me off actually. I'm going through my own issues and trying to figure stuffs out, and now I gotta deal with everyone asking everyone else out, flowers sent, secret admirers, blah blah. omg. I am tired. Don't mention it to me. I barely tease others about their social problems anymore, just listen, cuz it kinda hurts, and it's really annoying when everyones talking about something you dun wanna talk about. I totally get that other side of the situation now.

Picking a Fight

Don't do it. It's stupid. It's really stupid. I was talking to friends a few days ago, and this one person was picking fights. We were commenting on my nails, which are long, because I like longer nails I can paint. I'm a girl, and I have girly habits. Sorry guys. So she said: "[my name] has long nails. It's been a whole weekend and she still hasn't cut them" in a derogatory tone to my face. I was like..."so?" and she replies "A whole weekend. What were you doing? Girly things like prancing around at sleepovers again?" HOLD UP. I don't prance. I don't spend every weekend at sleepovers. I'm not a party girl 24/7. I have a sense of responsibility with which, I SOMETIMES SPEND MY WEEKENDS WORKING IF I GOT A LOT TO DO. Don't just stereotype me like that. Five minutes later, she goes, "it's bad to cut your nails too short." great. so now I can't make them too short either. After that whole lecture of how I didn't cut my nails. wtf.

today, she commented, how "I'mna draw your eyebrows. Your facial features are interesting [she might have well said funny looking]". Great. and not only that, I was like, "I have fancy clothes too, not just my normal sweatshirt and jeans", and she said "oh really? I've never seen you wear them". Fair enough. I rarely wear anything snazzy to school. But then, she says "oh really? I didn't know you have such fancy clothes. You never wear them." UHM. JUST CUZ I DUN WEAR THEM IN FRONT OF YOU DOESNT MEAN I DUN HAVE THEM. YOURE IN TEH LIRARY HALF THE TIME ANYWAYS, LONER. so I told her "you dun see me over the summer and on weekends, loser." she pretty much stereotypes me as a giant nerd child that doesnt do anything except study. Okay, I agree I was mostly gung-ho about studying back in like middle school, when no one did anything fun, so I had no other choice. Now, when I go hang out with friends, she says OH, im a PARTY GIRL. Can't I be a dynamic character? Can't I have a life? and then, she tells me, OH, I've "changed". And I tell her, "no? I havent? At least I don't think so?" and she says, "Oh i must have thought wrong about you, I reached a breakthrough" I say "mkayyy you wanna tell me how you thought of me?" and she goes "no.". so i say, "okayy, why not?" and she says "Do you understand the word breakthrough? Apparently not. Let me tell you. Breakthrough means something I realized and I can't tell you." Great. just great. So not only are you gonna leave a cliffhanger, but youre just gonna tell me I dunno english? EXCUSE ME. Last time I checked, breatkthrough meant realization, but nothing else. No secrecy that enshrouds it. anddd I'm in AP LIT. You always comment on my "Lit Posse". That exists cuz im in LIT with all my LIT FRIENDS YA KNOW. Also, you know what? I don't belong to posses, and I'm sorry if you're not happy with our talking about lit. You can leave. Our seats are self-chosen anyways.

Okay, I wasn't that mean. But that whole thing brought me down all day. I felt kinda bad. It brings a disgusting taste with it. I'm done ranting about this topic now.

Thanks for Leaving Me Hanging

Today, I was comparing answers with a friend for homework, not to cheat, just to make sure we had the similar answers, and so I told her my answers. She confirmed with me for all of them, except the last one, where she basically said, i trust you less than my other friend, so your answer is false, and I'm not gonna tell you how I got it either, and now I'm gonna go to sleep. FAIL. These were her words.

her: i didn't get b

  at all

  i was like errr

  and she told me [AKA SHE KNOWS HOW TO DO IT]

  but i'm gonna go with her researchme: how did she do hers?

  >.>

 her: idk [WAY TO LIE LIKE 2 SECS LATER]

  And then, later, I ask her directly:

 me: wait

  tell me how she told you how to find it on the site

11:49 PM her: she didn't

  i just tod her my answers to compare

  and i said i didnt kno it

  and she gave it to me

and she lies once again. Thanks for your help. I might do hw late, and I was kinda pissy last time, cuz I was like in the middle of other stuffs, but like, no need to just ditch me. 

♫ "shes just a little too scared to get close because everyone who said they'd be there, left."

yea. why i never get too close to anyone, and keep my options open. experience makes me understand these things.

“Even a broken clock is right twice a day.”

So don't lose hope.

Fanfic: The Greatest Bromance Never Told,

Source: http://stjoan4eva.livejournal.com/28010.html

“No gears.” Jonghyun lifted a hand, pointing at the steel beams above their heads. “Life here, it’s not life; it’s clockwork, a machine. The sun comes up and lights the streets in the same order every day. People let the machines tell them when to get up, when to stop, when to go. The children sit in neat little rows, the office workers sit in neat little rows, the ahjummas curl their hair in neat little rows, the dead end up in neat little rows. Tick tock, tick tock. What music can come from that?”
Onew: “I didn’t know you were a philosophical drunk.”
oh jjong, HAHAHA

Onew: “…I like people. In general.”
Jjong: “Kinky.”
oh onew, the kid that's nice to everyone. it reminds me of a convo I had today.
Friend: Do you love me?
Me: I like people in general.
Friend: But do you like me the best?
Me: I don't play favorites.
Friend: Humph. That's what you always say. I bet you think differently inside.
We're so inefficient at saying the same thing that Onew and Jjong just said. xD


"[Jjong] sprawl[s] out across his torso like Jinki was his own personal body pillow."
HAHAH KINKYYY xD

“God you’re heavy, move, get off.” Jonghyun grinned and swung his legs around, now using his entire body to pin Jinki down.
“You’re comfy. Don’t wanna.”
“Brat. Aren’t you afraid you might catch “The Gay” or something?” Jinki scowled as Jonghyun smiled his crocodile smile down at him, teeth white and sharp even in the dark.
“Nah. We’ve got a bromance, it’s cool.”
Jjong you're such a rebel. Play nice to Jinki, dear. Yet I love it, don't stop.

Awesome Comment:
LOOOOOOL...they are so messed up it's adorable.
Ahem. I have issues with Jjongie...*pets him apologetically* but I liked him in this.
SAME HERE.

jjongie is such a cute name (:

To Guys

I like those that can go all the way. Those that aren't afraid to voice what's important to them, and care for those they want to care for. I like those that are strong enough to defy stereotypes and boldly have fun, even though they look hilarious while doing so. At least they're having fun. Smile, don't frown all the time trying to look "cool". If you enjoy it, don't hide it. Don't put people down trying to make yourself seem cool. It's not cool. I like to see passion out in front, not locked behind, waiting for the girl to act. Man up. You're guys for a reason. I wanna see that man in you.

Fanfic: roygbiv 3: yellow

So. I'm back with fanfic quotes. YAY.

Source: http://somedaydreaming.livejournal.com/60035.html#cutid1

"jinki doesn't need to know he's gay, too. not yet, at least." : kyaa they have potential~

"you wear your heart on you sleeve," : oh, jjong is as bad as key in terms of love xD

"'no way' jonghyun shouts towards kibum, but the back door has already slammed shut and he's left with the cool morning breeze blowing his spiked hair out of style.": jjong is always hyperactive like that. He's so talkative it's easy to know when something's wrong xD. Oh, I've forgotten how much I've liked first love stories <3. And that spiked hair? oh jjong style <33

"who is also sort of staring off into space like jinki just was." couple stares! xDD

To the Victoria and Amber: ""are you two a couple?" jonghyun asks point blank, a little surprised."

"jjongie boo?" :jjong trying to be girly LMAOOOO

Happy Chinese New Year!

Fanfiction

I stopped reading fanfic a while back, because I thought I was done with it. Fanfiction, and reading/stories in general serve to take me out of my normal environment, to whisk me away, and remove me from problems. I read the most when I feel down and/or uncertain. A while back, I felt that way, because I told my bf that we're plateau-ing and I was afraid he took it the wrong way, because he stopped talking to me for a while. A few days ago, my friends told me to either stop plateauing and move forward or cut the relationship. I thought about it for a while. A few days, to be exact. I finally reached the decision to stop the relationship. I went through so many excuses in my head. He's basically stopped talking to me, so he probably doesn't like me anymore, we can't go forward, our parents are iffy about the whole relationship, he deserves better, he's too far removed from me, I shouldn't be thinking about this so much, my grades are dropping, I'm having huge mood swings, etc. But, one friend asked, "so what if either he went out with another girl today. How would you feel?" And, I crashed. I couldn't. I..still have feelings. I'm back to fence-sitting. What's wrong with me? Why can't I decide? I'm so dumb. I need to straighten myself out. I need college to start, and I need to leave everything behind. I need to get offline and go sit in a corner. I need to squat down, hug my knees to my chest, and cry. I need to get under covers and play tent. I've started reading fanfic again, though I thought I was totally over it all. I'm such a mess. Great. I thought I was over this whole online thing, and back to being okay with reality. Well, I guess not.

Taemin Kisses

I was just searching for rumors of any possible girlfriends Taemin might have, because I saw a post about it, and I wanted confirmation. Turns out, it's probably a rumor with little truth behind it. Rumor mills these days. >.> Anyways, I turned up an article though. It's, with no other way to express it, amusing. xD

Taemin kisses a girl on an MBC Sitcom TWICE. :O Head-turner, right? But cool off Taemints! There's no "scandalous lip-locking action". xDD wow. overboard with the adjectives. I was like woohh fanning the page. xDD In fact, it's mostly "Taemin “falls over” and kind of presses his mouth near Eunkyung’s ear" HAHAH imagine a piece of fanart like that. xDD The second kiss is when the girl kisses Taemin, and it is done with " equal lethargy". xDD omg these adjectives. They bring such brilliant imagery. That writer is amazing, but I dunno if that's the goal on a site like allkpop. >.>

source: http://www.allkpop.com/2009/08/taemin_kisses_a_girl_twice_caught_on_film [there's pics!]

Jjong Playing Around (:

HAHA the facial expressions! It's like omg. this just made my day. xDDD His voice is so perfect, and he's so embarrassed at the end. KYAAAAA (: