Apologizing

does not always mean you are wrong and the other person is right.
It just means you value your relationship more than your ego.

cr. friend

Quotes

-friend's blog

"Sometimes we expect more from others because we would be willing to do that much for them." - Self explanatory.

"You shouldn't miss people who don't miss you, right? But I do." - yes I still miss you. sorry.

"Now you get to watch me leave [from] the window. Guess that's why they call it window pane." - hahaha PUNNYY.

"It hurts to love someone when we can't tell them what we really feel...because sometimes we get hurt without them knowing. We get jealous even if we have no right to feel that way. We want their time even if we are not in the position to demand for it. Although our hearts are breaking in silence, we still continue to love them because somehow in this hurtful love there is still hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a friend. " - this goes more for a friend than me, though I've gotten this feeling before.

"Throughout life you will meet one person who is unlike any other. You could talk to this person for hours and never get bored, you could tell them things and they won't judge you. This person is your soulmate, your best friend. Don't ever let them go." - well. Que sera sera.

11 = onety one xDD

"The doctor took an x-ray of my heart today and found you in it. He said [he couldn't] take it out because I [couldn't] live without you." -this would be pretty awesome, if it wasn't so fake.

"you and your fear
We are all scared. We are scared of different things, but we are scared. I bet you spend at least an hour of your time in your room, crying, trying to think of an easy way out of overcoming your fears. I know that’s what I do. And after a while, when the time where you do overcome your fear comes, you think to yourself, “Wow, I wasted precious time of my life crying over this?” Life offers you more positives than negatives. So when you are scared, instead of making a list of those negatives, you need to chill and celebrate the positives. You know how when you have fun, time feels like it passes by quicker? Well, if you only look at the positives, time will go by so quickly that you probably overcame that fear, and you didn’t even notice it! You did it. You crushed that fear, you stabbed it in the gut, you sawed it in half, and you smacked it in the face. Now your fear is afraid of you ;)" -haha yeps, this is a good attitude xDD

"Show me you need me.
I’m tired of always being the chaser, I’m tired of drowning myself in my own depression when you seem perfectly fine. If you want to keep me in your life, the least you could do is let me know I’m not just wasting my time. Set your ego aside and show me you need me as much as I need you. Words don’t mean a thing when they’re overused. I’m not asking for much, I just want you to show me that you’re also afraid of losing me." - Our hidden self is so different from our exterior, especially in this day and time. If pplz can match the two, that is just so brave. Anyways, to those who have shown their stuffs, I will do my best to accommodate them, and to those who I show that I wanna be with, maybe you'll do the same.

"talking to you makes my day" - its true. sometimes, even though i'm dead tired, i still stay up for you without any complaint.

SHINee - Replay (Japanese Version)

GAH MY NEW FAVORITE MUSIC VIDEO. All of them look so grown up nowww. Their hair isnt the fluffy, crimped style anymore, its gelled down into spikes that sweep to the side of their faces. Onew has a 'fresh' style. His hair is so perfect, even though it looks like it might fall at any second. It's also kinda glistening in gel, but that's what makes it unique. I didn't know short hair could look so good. And the way you sit in the seat at the end, teeheee i just wanna go and pet your hair, even though that would mess up your hair, but you'd still look okay with messy hairrrr xDD Minho, your style makes your face rounder, and such, so that it's really really cute noww. And Key. Those glasses are super bomb. All of you look so good, and sophisticated, and the dance moves look even sharper, if that is possible at all. The clothes are also so thought out. There are so many colors haphazardly splashed, yet all the colors match, and the details completely show character, yet completely show unity. It's a work of art. Your smiles like kinda make me giggle. I almost like fangirl screamed to myself when each person had a closeup. And that dance flying thing looks really good Taemin. I kinda wanna just squish each and every one of you, its so preciouss. I've been waiting for this comeback for ages, and it has so not disappointed me. I even like the styles, you guys ended up with color coordination, even though the outfits are so complex and different from before, it looks still kinda the same, with elements from before. KYAAA.

Playlist

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eSPhCS-15eE&feature=autoplay&list=PL748BD5A462B8ED16&index=33&playnext=

These songs kinda make me really happy. GO LISTEN! xDD

F(x) ft. SHINee - Lollipop

(What you gonna play now?
Whatsoever play, it’s gotta be funky!
1 2 3 Make it! 1 2 3 Make it! 1 2 3 Make it!
1 2 3 Make it! 1 2 3 Make it!
1 2 3 Make it! 1 2 3 Make it!)

[Krystal] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Sulli] Annyoung naega chatdeon neoya
Nollan nae du nooneun neoman chalkak
[Taemin] Nan beolsseo meomjit kkeulryeotji
Ddokgateun bimil gatgo isseo

[Amber] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Luna] Babbi geonil ddae jjajeungnal ddae
Pigonhal ddae dankkoomae ppajil ddae
Geuryeojineun dan han saram neo

[Krystal] Neoya gatgo shipeun myoyak
Gippeumi juneun mat toktok teojyeo
[Onew] Nal ootgae mandeun chiryojae
Joyonghee naman algo shipeo

[Key] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Jonghyun] Jjajeungnal ddaen
Neoreul bomyeon chakhagae byunhae
Nae gamjungeul manjyeojunen
Neoneun yeppeun mabeopsa

[Minho] Saljjak dagaseo julgeoga
Meonjeo gidarin cheok kkamjjak mollae
[Victoria] Nega baro nae bitamin
Jjarithan neukkim eojjeom joa

[Key] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
[Amber] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

Nae mamsokae saneun neoya
Eejen nan neo bakken bol su eopseo
[Luna] Naega bureum kkok waya dwae
Nal dugo meolli jeoldae motga

[Amber/Key] Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Dalkomhan lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Neon na.ae lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli



Translation

[Krystal] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Sulli] Hello, you’re the one I’ve searched for
My suprised eyes take a snapshot of you
[Taemin] I’ve already frozen, I’m attracted
We share the same secret

[Amber] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Luna] When I’m busy, when I’m annoyed
When I’m tired, when I’m having a sweet dream
The one person I long for is you

[Krystal] You’re the cure that I want
The taste of happiness is explosive
[Onew] The medicine that made me laugh
Only I know about this

[Key] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Jonghyun] When look at you while I’m irritated, I become nice
You’re the pretty magician who touches my feelings

[Minho] I’ll approach you and give it to you
I’ll sneak up on you like I’ve been waiting first
[Victoria] You are my vitamin
This tingly feeling is so nice

[Key] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
[Amber] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

[Key] You live inside of my heart
Now you’re the only one I can see
[Luna] If I call, you have to come
You can’t go far away without me

[Amber/Key] Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
Sweet lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lollipop oh
You’re my lollipop oh, lollipop oh, lolli

so i thought the lyrics were different when I first heard it >.>, so I had to search them up xD.

cr. lyrics [chipmunk intro part] http://bulanlanmoon.blogspot.com/2011/05/fx-ft-shinee-lollipop.html

cr. translated and romanized lyrics http://shineeworld-cambodia.findtalk.net/t813-lyrics-of-fx-s-lollipop-featuring-shinee

I Have 2 Tennis Skirts

:OOOO

Shoe Name

Haha I found out today, what style my grad shoes are xD, and the style has the same name as a friend xD

飛輪海 - 繼續愛

I heard this on shuffle yesterday, and totally decided that this is gonna a fav for a while xDDD Enjoyyy (:

Grad Pics!

https://picasaweb.google.com/terryyupics/110609Graduation?authkey=Gv1sRgCIyemc62xLK36wE#

http://deruiter.smugmug.com/Monta-Vista/Graduation2011/17477872_P27Ffh#1330298680_XzvQQ98

assuming these pics will be in cyberspace for a while xD

Glee Season 3

Starting in summer of 2011, on June 16th. That's about hereee xDD

cr. http://wiki.answers.com/Q/What_is_the_exact_date_and_time_glee_season_3_premiers

...and after 4 years...

...at the end of the day, you realize who your true friends are <3
-friend's status

gosh this is so true. i'm so saddd idk how to say goodbye

50 Things

Link: http://www.mitadmissions.org/topics/life/workplay_balance_at_mit/50_things.shtml

even though I may be sour about mit and all, though I do like this post xDD

Milk

I like milk. The kind that you buy from safeway or lucky, and is from cows, sillyheads. It may be bad for me, but too bad. When we got milk powder, it was totally the first thing that got lifted out of the box and made. It probably explains why I <33 ice cream and cream puffs and all those things too, and too bad if its bad for me. I like eating them.

One Republic - Apologize

When the guilded fall, it's even worse.

My Water Tastes like Sunblock

summer. when sweat and sunscreen dominate the smell around all my tennis stuff. Even the water smells like it, cuz I obviously touched the bottle/drank the water before, when I was playing. blech.

Fanfic

I didn't mean to start reading again. It's just a fic a friend wrote, and one of the tabs I had open. I actually had forgotten about it for a while, since I had a lot of tabs open. But then, I read the first 2 chapters of the 25 chapter sequence, and I realize that I miss the familiar apprehension and expectancy from fanfics. I miss the way everything can surprisingly be blended so well. How every pairing gets together, and how all the characters are connected in ways thought impossible. All the angst, the tears, and the super happy way things all turn out in the end. The way I read faster and faster, seeing the end of the chapter in record time. Neck bent, and tired, though not noticing, because in another world. And seeing the familiar names, the personalities that I know so well. Seeing how they react, and the giant bubble of a question. And finally, the giant smile from the ending well concluded. Excitement, surprise, then ending. Long fics and short ones. I remember reading ones with thousands and tens of thousands of words. Such an accomplished ending for a long night of reading. This one might not be as long, but some short oneshots are super sweet. Those 15 min contests have grown on me. Gah. <333 fanfiction. I thought I stopped a while back, but I guess not. Plus, for some reason, I still remember all my account stuffs, so I guess I do have access to all my old fanfic. My inbox is bursting with my fav unfinished ones xD time to go catch up!

"I'm going to make you love me"

Have fun. xD

Pretty Amazing

http://www.theatlantic.com/technology/print/2011/06/how-i-failed-failed-and-finally-succeeded-at-learning-how-to-code/239855/

Just cuz kids seem stupid doesn't mean they can't be amazing.

…and it's just a moment before they go…

cr. friend's status.
its true. and que sera sera, so theres nothing much left to do than to let it go.
congratulations for all your high school achievements, and good luck in college.

Read Between the Lines.

Time Warp

okay so some of the posts today might seem really weird and outta the time frame. It's cuz, I saved a bunch of posts as drafts, and never got around to finalizing and posting them, so yea. Now there's a barrage of new posts. Hurrah! Enjoy everyone!

Random Things to Put Out There

waylt = why are you like this: it took me so long to understand this >.>

the word lovely can easily be mistaken for 'lonely', so never use it, yea i realized this when I made the same mistake

TROLOLOL: another one of billions of versions of 'lol' xDD

I MUSTACHE YOU A QUESTION BUT I GUESS I'LL SHAVE IT FOR LATER.: HAHAAA SO PUNNYYY

as if you could kill time without injuring eternity: yea. just yea. truth.

♫ So I won't let you close enough to hurt me, I cant give you, what you think you gave me, It's time to say goodbye to turning tables: song lyrics, and I can't say I don't agree

The yt vid embedded:

bfflad = best friends for life and death: somewhat dark >.>

the three of us are all divas, the stars we like all became famous while single [list star names] I THOUGHT OF SHINEE <3 

kurt says: okayy. man up. you're amazing. He's gonna love you. and shoves him out. xDDD oh i <3 the easiness of guys.

red/orange = tight/compact

green/blue = open
cr.movie on nyupoly website detailing the remodeling done

diva = super sassy and taking no nonsense, and also having tons of emotions that it overwhelms yourself, super awesomee (:

Fun Day

I must say. After sleeping at like after 2, and feeling so tired i started coughing this morning, it was a great day. I had a lot of fun with friends. More fun than I've had in a long while. Everyone was talking, and I felt tightknit to everyone. A nice bonding event. Things returned to the way they were before, and I felt like I was treading on familiar ground again. A great feeling. I felt like the sun had returned. Plus, spring is coming, and the sun is shining more now. I actually really dislike wearing tons of layers, and in winter, I rather have cold fingers than wear three layers. yea. Just enough so I don't get sick. Today, I got to see the sun, and really enjoy myself, something I haven't done, and I'm going to cherish for the next few days and maybe even more as I engross myself in deca and work hard to keep all my work in order. I won't be seeing a lot of you the next few days, being gone and all, and it'll be nice to have memories with me. A few days ago, in class, I saw a friend looking at me, thinking about me, wanting to interact with me, but not sure how to advance, since it seemed that I had "moved on". She used to call us "best friends", and we used to be able to talk about anything without much thought beforehand, and I feel that kind of returning. I noticed this, and i started to help make her feel comfortable. Today was amazing in terms of bonding. I really cherish my old friends, even though we might have grown a bit apart, and maybe we don't have the same classes anymore, and we don't see each other as often, but remember that everyone has a part in my memories. Don't ever feel like I'm approachable. Even though I might be flustered and angry/panicky sometimes, but I still enjoy all your presences. Not to mention, I got a pretty bracelet with a hawaiian flower design on it. Red with white flowers. I'm thinking of making my deca bracelet thing tight too, and wearing both of them on my hand for a while. It'll be my new fashion statement, and a way for me to retain the memories of these  last few days in high school xDD

Glee - Funeral

Elmo commercial ftw. i havent seen sesame street for so longg

uh. jesse st. james went to ucla? >.>

all the glee children have sharper dance moves now, its so mature ^^

Repeated Song Selections

These never change. I've liked these since I've first heard them, and I still like them.

Shinee - A-yo
Hero - Love in the Ice

AP Testing

idk about any of you, but testing basically wipes me out for the rest of the day. yea. I'm always tired after ap testing, and I don't even want to bother studying for tests the next day, never mind being pleasant and thinking about homework/schoolwork in general and chatting. yea. sorry for all I've/will offend, I'm just so tired, and I don't want to be this way. Today, I was mad, cuz I didn't get enough sleep, and had to wake up early for studying for java. it was annoying, and I snapped at her in 1st. sorry. i didn't mean to do that. and i feel like you really did feel hurt after that. >.>

Unsafe is the New Safe

http://www.nytimes.com/2005/01/22/international/europe/22monderman.html?_r=1

Surprise surprise. I heard something to this extent before, but it's actually working really well xD Maybe America should start learning >.> and its economy might flip right side up again xD

Released

http://www.nytimes.com/2011/05/31/opinion/31brooks.html?_r=1

It's true. High school is now over. No more finals, tests, anything looming. I just gotta return everything, and the world is mine. I can do anything with my time, waste it all, or use it productively. I can change my mind, stick with it, and everything in between. After getting my fill of sleep, what can I do though? I usually go about with homework breathing down my neck, the next pop quiz flashing through my nightmares. Between spazzes, the discreet exchange of words on chat, trying to somewhat bond with friends, but still trying not waste time. A guilty pleasure at best. But now what? Everything is said and done, grades are turned in, classrooms put back into order. Senior check-out cards have pretty much been filled out, and graduation ceremony gowns are ready to be donned. And now what. I have nothing to do with life. I am barely anything without regulation, and that's scary. It's harder than trying to live up to expectations, because I don't know where to start, never mind if I can succeed at making my dream a reality. And if the real world is that scary, I don't know where to start. It's gonna be scary taking my first step out there.

S.H.E - 金钟罩铁布衫 (Jin Zhong Zhao Tie Bu Shan) [Golden Shield Plus Iron Cloth]

KYAAA <333 this song. It's so catchy xDD